Well here I am at 430am, awake and thinking about my life. Why is it that my deepest thoughts always happen at this time of the morning?
I couldnt sleep so I crawled out of bed and am now siting on a balcony looking at the view. I know what your thinking, "There's no such thing as a view in Logan" well that's right and I'm not in Logan.
I crawled out of bed and left the most wonderful, kind, hilarious and extremely delicious man in bed. YUP! You heard it here first. I have me a man friend.
Some will think I'm crazy, that it's the wrong time or maybe even that it's too earlier but you know what?! That's for me to decide.
I have never been so comfortable! Not the laze around, eat pizza in bed while watching Disney movies kind of comfortable but something more wonderful. Yes I know pizza is pretty wonderful but nothing like my boo-thang!
He's the kind of soul that calms me and has me thinking logically/rationally. The kind that makes me feel empowered and grounded. The kind that makes me feel this weird thing that I can't even really explain.
Its early days and you'd probably say we're in the honeymoon phase but I would have to strongly disagree, I don't even shave my legs on a regular basis for him. No smoke and mirrors here baby!
They say that infatuation is the state of being carried away by an unreasonable passion. Well that's where I'm at; Infatuation City, population 1.
I am absolutely smitten.
It's funny to think nearly 8 months ago I would have never even imagined feeling like this. I kind of thought I'd be living on a farm with 10 dogs by now and growing my own corn. But oooooooooo wwwwweeeeeeee look at me now!
It also wasn't long ago that I decided that I would give the dating game a break and that tinder was just for entertainment but then i seen a profile that said "swipe right to save the Kanagaroo". We all know I love animals so I had to save this poor inflatable kangaroo that was being harassed then BAM! I was hooked!!
I've still got my own issues to sort through and I'm probably at a big transitional phase in my journey but we've had the conversations, he knows my story and has held me when I had a little breakdown, he even heard me sob :-O and I don't cry in front of ANYONE!
He's my spot of comfort, warmth and empowerment.
Only time will tell what'll happen from here but I have high hopes that he will continue to listen to me rap in the car to every Nicki Minaj song, make me lactose free milk cups of tea and wake me up with cute ass cuddles.