I think we often try to forget our past because it's so painful to relive those past feelings or moments. Reality is the past is always going to be apart of your future.
Sometimes I think we forget exactly how far we've come because we're so concerned about where we are going.
Oh Lordy lord! It's 1:30am and I can not for the life of me get to sleep even though two hours ago I could barely keep my eyes open and now I'm up writing this blog post.
Well hello there blog and people who read it. It's been a very long time since I've actually written anything and I mean anything, this also includes a shopping list.
It made me realise that I am not alone. I have someone who loves and supports me. Friends who genuinely care and protect me. And most importantly a family who is always there for me.
Its not often that your lucky enough to find someone who is your equal; the same mindset, humour, ambition and understanding that compliments yours.
Well here I am at 430am, awake and thinking about my life. Why is it that my deepest thoughts always happen at this time of the morning?
So from the last few blogs I've written I think its apparent that I've been at a fairly low point in my journey. I had lost a little faith and found myself question a lot of things in my life... okay really I've been questioning everything. I've questioned my job, friendships/relationships, my purpose and my choices.
So here's a fun topic - Dating. Now I certainly do not think I know it all and most definitely do not speak on behalf of all women... just the majority hahaha! My time on tinder thus far has inspired me to write this..
They say that life is full of ups and downs and lately I've been feeling a little more down then up.
Ugh Tinder, why you gotta do a girl so dirty?! 200 plus matches and yet no appropriate suitors.
Church and religion, the two things my friends/family thought I would never get involved in.
Lonely, so freaking lonely. That's the only way to describe how I've been feeling lately and honestly I didn't want to write because of it.
Isn't it funny how someone you may have met only for a short moment can make such an impact on your life?!
Everyone has their good, great, bad and worse days. Lately my head hasn't been in the right place. I've been feeling lonely and lost. I can't even pin point why or how this feeling has even come about because it's just there. I guess that's just a part of the motions of life right?
Have you ever been in a room full of strangers who don't say one word to you but just glare at you like your some strange zoo animal? Well usually that's me your staring at, I'm that zoo animal.
Dates, Dinners and Lessons learnt
Isn't it funny how we think our lives should turn out? I know that personally I thought I would have two kids, a husband and a happy home by now. Yes, wow I'm only 27 (turning 28) and are still young but that's just how I thought my life would pan out.
Have you ever met someone or know someone who just needs a good shaking? Like a 'Hello, you're fabulous and deserve more than you give yourself credit for' kind of shake?
Not exactly what I thought I'd be writing about as my second post but here is it. The Case of the Toxic Ex...
I kept saying I would do it, so here I am... doing it! But I guess I should really start with why.